One Day At A Time

 "Today Is A Brand New Day."

I feel like returning to the "one day at a time" concept will help me get back on track but I also know I need to set some goals to help motivate me. I've been slacking when it comes to exercise so the big goal is to get 125 workouts done by March 31st. I'm at 50 so I have 75 to go. This is a completely reachable goal. I really want to get back in the habit of working out before work, so that is a goal as well and it fits with the big goal ! Let's face it - I've gotten super lazy and super comfortable with being lazy .. and that is a recipe for disaster. I feel like the worst of winter is behind us and nicer weather is coming, so it's time to shake off hibernation mode and the other 100 excuses I've used not to exercise. I've been on what can only be considered a bit of a bender. I've continued eating Nutrisystem food but I've added in lots of other stuff that can only be described as "junk". Donuts, cookies, candy. Carbs. My kryptonite and my nemesis. My addiction. I guess if you have to be addicted to something food is the lesser of the evils but I'm going in the wrong direction and I'm not happy with myself.

A while back I decided it's time to stop counting days. I started Nutrisystem on January 4, 2019 and I remain committed to the program. I reached my goal weight on July 23, 2021 and lost over 150 pounds. After taking a break from exercise to focus on work I gained a bit of weight back. On December 28, 2021 I started working on getting back to my goal weight. The next milestone in this paragraph will be the day I get back to 150 or less pounds. I started this "new" blog since the journey I started back in 2019 is over and I'm transitioning to my new life. 

Breakfast was waffles with sugar free syrup and a yogurt. Totally missed my morning snack. Lunch was a pepperoni pizza melt with a chef salad. Afternoon snack was cottage cheese and oatmeal cookies. Dinner was roasted turkey with roasted veggies. Evening snack was a chocolate ice cream cup. All Nutrisystem food today ! I did not drink as much water as I should, so I need to put a little more focus on that. It's tough in the winter !

Last week was a busy one. While taking the trash out Tuesday I noticed one of the porch windows was broken. They're very old aluminum windows and the glass is brittle, so the wind and snow probably got to it. I knew rain was coming so I needed to seal the gap right away, so that was my lunchtime project. I managed to patch it up enough to keep the rain out and didn't cut myself .. that's a win ! I'm thinking I will get a sheet of plexiglass and replace the whole pane once the weather is nicer. The rain came along just after I got done so that was good timing ! Since it was raining all afternoon I decided to check the basement after work to ensure all was well (it was) but it sounded like the discharge of water from the sump pump was pretty close to the house, which it shouldn't be. I went outside and sure enough the pipe that carries the water away from the house had become detached, probably from the weight of snow. I managed to put it back together but was soaking wet and freezing by the time I got done with that project. So there went my day ! Wednesday I had the day off to take my mom to an appointment and we also did some shopping and had dinner at Cracker Barrel. Thursday and Friday were unremarkable. Saturday was my usual casino day with mom. We had dinner at Pino Bianco at Turning Stone Casino. I had chicken marsala with a chef salad and it was delicious. I skipped dessert but a cranberry scone from Opal's snuck into my bag and came home with me. They haven't had them in weeks so I had to get one. Sadly, they appear to be a new recipe and I did not like it. I guess that's a good thing since I won't be tempted again. Here we are at Thursday already this week ! Monday and Tuesday were the usual work days but I had yesterday off to take my mom to an appointment. Afterwards we had a quick lunch at DQ and then went to Point Place casino for some slot therapy !! We came home losers but we enjoyed the day. I was lucky enough to get back home just before a blast of snow hit !! Today flew right on by and I can't believe tomorrow is Friday already, not that I'm complaining ! 

As I mentioned at the beginning of this blog, I've been on a bender. I've been off kilter. I've been lost .. wandering .. ungrounded. Undisciplined. Unmotivated. Lazy. Self-indulgent. Really just plain lazy and thinking I can get away with eating whatever I want without consequence. Well, my jeans call bullshit on that !! So I'm going hard core back to Nutrisystem and exercise. No excuses. No extra's. No mercy. To get the morning workout in I plan to get up when I wake up, as long as it's after 5 am (or close to it). I usually wake up before the alarm every day but I lay in bed until the last second. No more. I worked too hard to get over 150 pounds off and I'll be darned if I'm going to regain them ! I took a new profile photo yesterday and that is the way I want to continue to see myself. I felt pretty and all the years I was fat I never felt pretty.

So that's where I am today. Still lots to be proud of. Still lots to work on. I thought life was boring and then I realized it's only boring if you allow it to be. It's within my power to change things up and put new challenges in front of myself. If life is boring that's on me ! If I'm not achieving my goals .. that's on me too ! You know, in other words .. put on your big girl panties and deal with it !